Allison at 5 Weeks Old - From My Journal - 6:30 a.m.

July 4, 1982

G, Allison and I drove to Lake Kanasatka in New Hampshire to be with our group of friends last night at their camp on the lake. 

Just the smell of this place made me so happy and relaxed. I am really excited for Allison to feel all the good and peaceful things that G and I feel when we come up here.

Woke up this morning on our bed in the living room, rolled over and the sun was rising orange over the sparkling lake.  I wanted to show Allison, but she was asleep and when she's asleep, there is no waking her! 

An hour later she woke up to a room bathed in sunlight...for the first time in her life!! 

We had the best nursing we've EVER had...in the sunlight together.  Everything was quiet.  Nobody else was awake,  the birds were out, a loon was singing on the lake and the lake...it sparkled from the sun and reflected up on the ceiling of the living room where we were nursing quietly together. 

After nursing G took her for a walk.  I'm sure he is telling Allison all about the mountains and the lake and the nice air and the loons.  If not verbally, then in the most important language there is.

I would love for Allison to wake up here every day. 

I'm so happy this morning.

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I wish I could take a picture of Allison every time I wanted to.  When she's nursing or sucking her pacifier she folds her little hands in one way or another and it's so delicate.  Whe she's laying on the bed she'll stretch to the full length that her body will allow, with her back arched, belly sticking up and arms outstretched. 

Her hads in little tight fists.  When she yawns in that position she usually ends up crying out a little because she gets so overwhelmed. 

It's adorable.

Allison's face is amazing, starting with those 2 huge eyes.  So often they're doing nothing but sparkling, but they're so funny when she's mad, also.  Her brow furrows, lips purse and her eyes get really cloudy and upset.

It's amazing to get to know this person every moment.

G and I are so blessed.

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